Here I sit.

So I haven't written in awhile. I'm sorry. It's Monday night and I'm at work (tv station) waiting for stupid Monday Night Football to get over. I have to do audio for the 11 o'clock news (or in our case the 1am news). The sad part is I have to be right back in here at 3:30am to do audio for the morning news. I feel at times all I do is push buttons here. Mic the anchors, bring in nats, hit the close music. It's so much like the guy down the street pushing buttons at the factory. People say "Wow you work at a televison station, that's so cool!" At times I think about this, and is this all my life has amount to at 25. There has got to be more. I believeAmore is my escape from reality. It's more of a fantasy. One where I can live out my dreams and desires. It's the one thing I have 100% control over. No higher ups, no suits, just me and a great team of believers that I respect.